The Path of Missteps
Staggering blindly down my quasi-spiritual path in an attempt to make it less "quasi-" and more "spiritual"...
November 10, 2010
HINA - said by some to be the greatest of Polynesian goddesses. In certain tellings she is the original creator of the world, the goddesses and gods, and human beings. One story tells of her love affair with an eel, who is killed; she buries his head, and several days later the first coconut tree springs forth from the grave. Hina is perhaps best known as the woman who lives in the moon. There she creates beautiful tapa cloth from the bark of the mulberry tree, which we see as clouds surrounding the moon.
Hina represents that part of ourselves that creatively brings forth nourishment even in the midst of what appears to be death and decay.
August 15, 2010
Last night I had, that I can recall, the first ever dream in which I truly believed a past life connection was revealed to me. Someone that I know now was my brother in a past life. Just wanted to let ya'll know that that came through. All for now.
August 2, 2010
DRAGONFLY
http://www.linsdomain.com/totems/pages/dragonfly.htm
Illusion, the Power of Light
Dragonfly is the power of light.
The dragonfly inhabits two realms: air and water and the influence of both these elements will be felt by Dragonfly people. They will be emotional and passionate during their early years (the influence of water)
and more balanced with greater mental clarity and control in as they mature (the influence of air).
Dragonfly is the essence of the winds of change, the messages of wisdom and enlightenment; and the communication from the elemental world. Dragonfly medicine beckons you to seek out the parts of your habits which need changing. Call on Dragonfly to guide you through the mists of illusion to the pathway of transformation.
The number 2 is important to Dragonfly,
so think in terms of two year periods when you begin a change.
Dragonfly brings the light and color of transformation into your life.
Dragonfly Medicine
http://morningstar.netfirms.com/dragonfly.html
Dragonfly embodies a stripping away of all the beliefs that say we cannot do this or that, achieve a dream or goal, it is to remind us that anything is possible when we really get the understanding that we are part of Spirit and as such we have the power to manifest anything that we desire.
Dragonfly is the keeper of dreams, the knower within that sees all of our true potential and ability. Dragonfly strips away the illusions that say to us we cannot achieve our dreams and goals, that we are not worthy or capable when in fact it is our birthright and our true power to create anything we choose!
Dragonfly also connects us with the power of colour and the ability to work with many different colours to achieve anything we want to experience in life. We can begin to see how the colours we wear via our clothing, the colours that we fill our homes with, even the colour of the car we drive is impacting us for better or worse. Continually wearing dull drab colours while asking for more adventures or excitement in life sends the message that we do not really want what we are asking for. The colour we surround ourselves with does set up a vibration that attracts circumstances and energies that reflect back to us what messages we are sending forth. If we want change we need to affirm that we are ready and willing for the changes to occur through the use of colour vibrations that match the energy we are seeking to experience. If one wants to become better recognized for the work one loves doing then wearing shades of red or violet will help one achieve that. For new beginnings try wearing shades of green. To feel more empowered try wearing shades of yellow. To feel more deeply connected with the Universe and to develop greater intuitive ability, all shades of blues and indigo are excellent! Colour is a very valuable tool in expressing who we are, who we desire to be and what we desire to experience in our lives. Look at the world around you: All of nature sets forth its intent and requests through the use of a vast range of colour. A flower will attract a pollinator through its colour. A Tree Frog may warn predators that it is not good to eat through the colours it displays on its body. A Lion can attract a mate through the colour of his mane. Working with Dragonfly can also teach us how to use colour to attract that which we desire or at least, to understand what messages we ourselves are putting forth through the colours we wear!
Dragonfly also teaches us how to combine emotion with rational thought. Dragonflies in the early stages are known as Nymphs and spend most of their lives in the water. They are voracious predators which indicates that Dragonfly can also help one to eat away at anything in our lives that is out of control. They are especially helpful for addictions of all sorts including the more "well known" addictions such as overeating, drinking to excess or drug addictions. Yet procrastination, over spending or maxing credit cards to the limit, daydreaming, overwork and so forth can all be addictions that rob one of the ability to create a balanced, fulfilling life. Most if not all addictions are due to suppressed emotional energies and traumas that are being compensated for through the addiction. Overeating for example can be a "medicine" for feeling unloved and Alcoholism "medicine" for depression. When Dragonfly appears it may indicate that there are addictions or other problems/pests that are "out of control" in your life that need to be examined and resolved. Often the main issue will not always be what it appears to be on the surface, it is important to peer beneath the emotional waters so to speak in order to understand what is really happening!
Once the Dragonfly has emerged as a winged adult, it conquers the air through its swift flight. This indicates that working with Dragonfly energy may also help you come to some swift conclusions or new insights that help propel you into new ways of being and doing. Certainly it is a most important time for seeing through illusions and really hearing the messages that the Universe is sending you at this time. Beliefs that centre on powerlessness, limitation or fear are likely to be up for review and release. You always have the power to choose what you are going to believe in and focus on You always have the power to take action of some sort that will help change your current circumstances for the better. Working with Dragonfly medicine shows that you are ready to step beyond the mass thought of blaming "something out there" for your problems and instead are now getting down to the business of accepting responsibility for what happens in your life by making the appropriate changes as you feel guided.
People who carry Dragonfly medicine are often quite talented in the use of Colour for healing. They may see or sense the colours that an individual carries in their aura and can learn how to help the person adjust the colour rays so that one become more a part of their own healing process rather than relying on someone else to do the healing for them (which never works anyway!). For example, if someone carries a heavy, murky colour of red in their aura which may lead to power struggles, constant irritations from others or things always going wrong, the Dragonfly person can help that person bring in the clear reds that are more empowering in terms of living with confidence but without the chip on the shoulder that begs for someone to come along and knock it off! Or if someone has an aura that appears to be depleted of vital energy and colour, the Dragonfly person can help this person learn to work with drawing in all the colours of the Universe, both seen and unseen, to repair and invigorate the aura. A simple way of doing this is to start by focusing on all the colours of the rainbow and to visualize them entering into the aura via the Universal flow. This can be expanded by asking that all colours including those our human eyes are not yet able to perceive also flow into the aura. This can take as little as 1 minute up to 20 or more to accomplish, normally though when one has attracted enough of this energy there is a sense of completion or "inner click" and the person just feels done with the process. This can be done as often as someone feels the need and is especially helpful during times of great stress or trauma. Colour is part of the "food" that the aura needs to remain strong and healthy so doing this several times a week or each day can be very uplifting and strengthening!
Dragonfly people are also very talented at helping others navigate their own emotional waters. How often have you heard someone say they "felt Blue" or "tickled Pink"? Our emotions have colours just the same as our world is filled with colour. By noting what colours one is attracted to over a cycle of time, one also can hone in more closely on what emotions are really running the life. Because we become so acclimated to feeling a certain way, we may not even realize that we are depressed, feeling a low level anger or hostility, or are in grief still over an event that occurred many years ago. Or we may project those emotions onto others and wonder why we are constantly attracting people that are depressed or hostile! Dagonfly energy and people can help us get more in touch with our felt but ignored emotions, our ways of feeling that have become so well known to us that we don't even realize those emotions are there! Our emotions also impact the colours that our aura's are displaying and having a Dragonfly person take a good close look at those colours can really help someone release any energy that is not to their benefit while learning how to incorporate more of the colours that will be of better service. Once we are able to put a name to something, then we can begin the process of researching the tools that will help us to heal and move on from it.
In our culture emotions are not "nice", people are not encouraged to feel the wide range of emotions we have been blessed with and so often the energy gets trapped or stuffed down, especially in the lower chakras. Working with Dragonfly energy, calling it into the lower chakras (where much of this energy is especially trapped and then manifested through the body) can help stir this energy up and get it moving again. It need not be as painful as one might fear and it is always less painful than having that energy constantly attracting more of the same to you through its vibration! To work with this if you don't know a Dragonfly person to help you through the process, simply call in the energy of Dragonfly through your mind, just thinking about it is enough and will work. Next, visualize the Dragonfly moving through your lower chakras, infusing them with clear, brilliant colours, the loveliest you can imagine. If you start to feel emotional, stick with the process! Usually it does not take so long for this energy to clear and you need to be feeling those emotions! Cry, yell, stomp your feet, do what ever it takes to get that energy up and out, and bear in mind that you have a powerful ally working within you and for you that us helping support you during this process. If however you really do feel afraid or are concerned you might "lose it", do consult with an alternative healer or other therapist before engaging in any of this sort of healing work. Its a great sign of true strength and power to know we all need help from time to time!
Dragonfly people often benefit from working with crystals that have "rainbows" within them or stones that are brightly coloured, especially if the colours are clear and bright. Accents of colour throughout one's home can really lift the spirits of a Dragonfly person, especially if they have been doing loads of healing work on themselves and others.
When Dragonfly appears be ready for transformation! This is a long cycle that can take up to 2 years or more and yet the work and effort are well worth it in the end. At times you may feel like you are firewalking your way through life (Dragonflies are really mini Dragons after all!) and yet what is emerging from within you is a sense of your own inner power and faith in a Higher Power that no one can ever take from you! You are in the process of coming to know and understand who you truly are, of connecting with the vast source of power and energy that was given to you by Spirit at the time your Soul came into being. This power has grown within you as you have journeyed through space and time. Now is the time for it to be claimed as your own so you may step forth renewed as the powerful Soul that you came to this earthwalk to express!
Essences that are helpful for Dragonfly people are:
All of the Colour essences range.
Arizona Rainbow Hedgehog Cactus - An excellent essence for use when applying colour to any area of your life for healing and expansion.
Diamond essences - All colours of this range.
Gingergrass - Helps the Dragonfly person to feel uplifted and excited by what each new day brings. Very empowering and helpful if the Dragonfly healer is feeling burned out or stressed.
Apricot - Helps the Dragonfly person stay in touch with and balance their own emotional energies even as they are teaching others how to do the same.
Tsavorite Garnet -Very healing and supportive of those who are tapping into their own Dragonfly energy and learning how to work with it properly. This essence is an excellent choice if one is needing a boost of energy!
July 30, 2010
I don't know if it's due to my currently close daily proximity to all things psychic, of if it's just me and where I am with myself right now... or both. But I kind of feel as though I'm holding a thick velvet blanket over myself - a magic blanket that profoundly blocks all things intuitive.
I lately have felt a growing urge to join the ranks of my fellow contractors as an intuitive reader. I feel the talent itself bubbling at the surface, but not quite breaking the surface. I know that if I consciously tried to do it, I'd fail miserably. And sitting down with a psychic who squinches up her face, and develops a thin sheen of sweat across her mug as she strains to hear even the faintest psychic whisper? Probably not the most sought after intuitive on the block.
What to do... what form will this gift take... if any? I've lately taken a numerology class, which seems to be more memorization of what each number means. A few days ago I picked up a deck of cards on palm reading at the half price bookstore.
I just don't know what fork in the road to take on this one. But I'm anxious to get the velvet pulled OFF!
July 12, 2010
So... there's this stone that I've been wanting to find: Pietersite.
When I heard that it was also known as The Tempest Stone I knew I had to have it regardless of the rest of it's energetic properties.
The funny thing is that - at work - there are several different bins of different loose stones scattered across most of one wall. It seems like each day I'm there - even though I've walked by the wall a million times now - I'm discovering a stone that I've never seen before - that was always really there. Pietersite was the last time this happened, and it made an impression.
I held it, and I just thought POWER.
I looked up the properties, saw that it was also known as The Tempest, and that it held the power of storms. TOTALLY sounded like me, and I loved the way that it felt in my hand when I was holding it.
I found several little stones in the Pietersite box that I liked, but - as I said - they were all "little".
I wanted a CHUNK.
Today I found the biggest piece yet. It's a small sphere - maybe an inch and a quarter in diameter.
I really thought that I wanted a stone with a bit more red in it, but when I held it I KNEW it was mine.
So... we'll see what the Pietersite brings me... to begin with - MORE POWER and LESS SPINELESS would be great!
June 25, 2010
There were Archangel Michael Cards behind the counter at work today. I chose one at random. Apparently - not so random. The Universal axiom there are no accidents apparently extends into the smallest details - like picking a card from a deck that isn't yours just for the heck of it.
The following is the message on the card - just for me:
Write about your thoughts and feelings. This card indicates that you're confused by conflicted feelings, and are unsure of which direction to go in. Archangel Michael will help you delve into your emotions, pealing away the layers in order to reach your inner core of truth. He guides you to write down everything you're thinking and feeling without editing or censoring your words. Keeping a private journal will enable you to gain insights into the nature of what you genuinely desire. This clarity will illuminate the steps you need to take next.
Possible specific meanings:
Thank you for helping me tap into my god given creativity and wisdom so I clearly express myself and glean insight, blessing and healing.
There is no way that any of that can be construed as accidental.
June 11, 2010
Yesterday I received my level II Reiki re-attunement. I was expecting it to go somewhat like my first. It did, and it didn't. The first time around (again) you'll recall (as was mentioned below) that I experienced a very strong up swell of anger during and after the attunement. This time, not so much. Not at all actually. I was strangely calm throughout the entire ritual. Granted, the second attunement was shorter compared to the first, but still... so serene I felt that I was expecting a latent wave of animosity to hit at any moment following. It didn't.
What did happen was that, by the time I got home last evening, I was mired in such a bog of apathy and numbness, that I couldn't really even call it depression. Depression would have been feeling something. This was utter and complete dry, husky nothingness. I find this especially noteworthy because, when I arrived at work yesterday afternoon, someone actually mentioned - out loud - that I looked so much happier than usual.
I was shocked at the moment that this statement was made because I realized that I did feel surprisingly light, carefree and pleasant... and if you've read me at all then you know this is SO unlike me. So... to go from that alien state - through a very serene attunement session - landing finally in a smoggy gray cloud of lethargy was a bit of a long winded trip to the twilight zone... even for me, which is saying something.
The part of yesterday's experience that WAS repetitive were the eyes. During my attunement, I saw several pairs of eyes looking at me in the darkness beneath my eyelids. The first thing I remember seeing (I think) was a gray and white wolf running toward me through what looked like a long narrow tunnel extending from my left eye. Next, there was a a single eye - a female eye - made up with mascara, eyeliner, shadow, glitter - the whole nine. It was giving me this coy, flirty look. The eye was directly in the middle of my field of "vision" but was turned slightly to my right and was looking slyly at me beneath long dark heavy lashes. If I'd been able to see the whole face that went with this single eye, I'm sure the lips would have been bright red and arranged into a satisfied smirk, as if she were privy to some hilarious secret that I'd yet to uncover.
I believe the next two images were a barn owl's pair of ghostly eyes, followed by two bright red glowing eyes. Then a smattering of animals: a mouse, an elephant, a small monkey and a baboon.
My attuner tells me that there was another male presence in attendance - an ancestor, but neither of us could figure out who it was.
This morning I awoke with a dull headache and an unsureness that I was going to be able to get up. Once I did, popped some Excedrin, some supplements and a banana, I felt better by the time I got to work.
The one friend - a workmate - who I shared the experience with so far believes that the eyes all belong to my individual guides who are ready for me to take notice of them and become more aware of who they are and what they do for me.
I'm ok with that... but... sounds difficult and - for me - seemingly impossible. I want to feel sure that I know who I have watching over me, what their individual roles are and their names. I don't trust myself to come up with an accurate image, role and title without believing more that I've made it all up out of desperation than an actual knowing.
May 26, 2010
Ok... hearing signs that I need to let go of anger and judgment. Something happens, I knee jerk to anger, and that brings on the judgment. Perhaps, since I'm so good at the self-loathing, my expertise can't help but leak out and soak everyone else on the planet who's unlucky enough to commit what I see as a judgment-worthy offense. Not much else to say about that yet except that it's on my mind, and I'm aware that I'm resisting doing something about it because even the idea of letting go of some or all of it is annoying to me. I WANT to judge because I feel entitled. Perhaps if I'm so busy pointing the critical finger outward I won't have to focus on NOT doing it to myself.
Jeepers. I would say I'm a mess at this point, but I already got my hand slapped for the trash talking of self more than once today.
HELP!
May 22, 2010
Yesterday a memory came to me. I can't recall if this was a dream I'd had the night before or a vision during my attunement, BUT... dolphins.
If it was a dream it was terribly vivid at the time. I remember little though aside from the closeness I felt to being in the water with this animal. It feels as though there may have been several surrounding me... OR it's also possible that the connection with the one was so strong that I felt strongly surrounded by intense dolphin energy.
Here is some basic information in Dolphins as animal totems.
And if you don't wish to follow the link then this is what animal totem.com told me:
Dolphins are beautiful, playful animals. They live in water but are actually mammals that need to breath air through a single nostril also known as a blowhole located on top of their head. Normally dolphins surface approximately every two minutes for air, but are capable of holding their breath for several minutes when making rapid deep dives.
Dolphin comes when we need to break emotional barriers and communicate truth. Dolphin will then guide us to find harmony by moving forward with our life.
If you want to make a deeper connection with your Animal Totem, fill your environment with images of the animal to let the animal know it is welcome in your space.
May 20, 2010
This afternoon, one of my newest friends (who is quickly becoming one of my dearest friends) gave me a reiki attunement.
It was actually a re-attunement as I'd had the full attunement to the level of Master/Teacher ten years ago.
But for a long time now I've felt disconnected from Spirit... or God... or the Universe... or whatever you wanna call it... actually whatever I wanna call it, right? And I don't know what I wanna call "it".
I can't really remember the last time I felt connected to God. And, honestly - if I had full memory of every moment in my life - I don't know if I could say I've ever felt that connection.
November 10, 2010
HINA - said by some to be the greatest of Polynesian goddesses. In certain tellings she is the original creator of the world, the goddesses and gods, and human beings. One story tells of her love affair with an eel, who is killed; she buries his head, and several days later the first coconut tree springs forth from the grave. Hina is perhaps best known as the woman who lives in the moon. There she creates beautiful tapa cloth from the bark of the mulberry tree, which we see as clouds surrounding the moon.
Hina represents that part of ourselves that creatively brings forth nourishment even in the midst of what appears to be death and decay.
August 15, 2010
Last night I had, that I can recall, the first ever dream in which I truly believed a past life connection was revealed to me. Someone that I know now was my brother in a past life. Just wanted to let ya'll know that that came through. All for now.
August 2, 2010
DRAGONFLY
http://www.linsdomain.com/totems/pages/dragonfly.htm
Illusion, the Power of Light
Dragonfly is the power of light.
The dragonfly inhabits two realms: air and water and the influence of both these elements will be felt by Dragonfly people. They will be emotional and passionate during their early years (the influence of water)
and more balanced with greater mental clarity and control in as they mature (the influence of air).
Dragonfly is the essence of the winds of change, the messages of wisdom and enlightenment; and the communication from the elemental world. Dragonfly medicine beckons you to seek out the parts of your habits which need changing. Call on Dragonfly to guide you through the mists of illusion to the pathway of transformation.
The number 2 is important to Dragonfly,
so think in terms of two year periods when you begin a change.
Dragonfly brings the light and color of transformation into your life.
Dragonfly Medicine
http://morningstar.netfirms.com/dragonfly.html
Dragonfly embodies a stripping away of all the beliefs that say we cannot do this or that, achieve a dream or goal, it is to remind us that anything is possible when we really get the understanding that we are part of Spirit and as such we have the power to manifest anything that we desire.
Dragonfly is the keeper of dreams, the knower within that sees all of our true potential and ability. Dragonfly strips away the illusions that say to us we cannot achieve our dreams and goals, that we are not worthy or capable when in fact it is our birthright and our true power to create anything we choose!
Dragonfly also connects us with the power of colour and the ability to work with many different colours to achieve anything we want to experience in life. We can begin to see how the colours we wear via our clothing, the colours that we fill our homes with, even the colour of the car we drive is impacting us for better or worse. Continually wearing dull drab colours while asking for more adventures or excitement in life sends the message that we do not really want what we are asking for. The colour we surround ourselves with does set up a vibration that attracts circumstances and energies that reflect back to us what messages we are sending forth. If we want change we need to affirm that we are ready and willing for the changes to occur through the use of colour vibrations that match the energy we are seeking to experience. If one wants to become better recognized for the work one loves doing then wearing shades of red or violet will help one achieve that. For new beginnings try wearing shades of green. To feel more empowered try wearing shades of yellow. To feel more deeply connected with the Universe and to develop greater intuitive ability, all shades of blues and indigo are excellent! Colour is a very valuable tool in expressing who we are, who we desire to be and what we desire to experience in our lives. Look at the world around you: All of nature sets forth its intent and requests through the use of a vast range of colour. A flower will attract a pollinator through its colour. A Tree Frog may warn predators that it is not good to eat through the colours it displays on its body. A Lion can attract a mate through the colour of his mane. Working with Dragonfly can also teach us how to use colour to attract that which we desire or at least, to understand what messages we ourselves are putting forth through the colours we wear!
Dragonfly also teaches us how to combine emotion with rational thought. Dragonflies in the early stages are known as Nymphs and spend most of their lives in the water. They are voracious predators which indicates that Dragonfly can also help one to eat away at anything in our lives that is out of control. They are especially helpful for addictions of all sorts including the more "well known" addictions such as overeating, drinking to excess or drug addictions. Yet procrastination, over spending or maxing credit cards to the limit, daydreaming, overwork and so forth can all be addictions that rob one of the ability to create a balanced, fulfilling life. Most if not all addictions are due to suppressed emotional energies and traumas that are being compensated for through the addiction. Overeating for example can be a "medicine" for feeling unloved and Alcoholism "medicine" for depression. When Dragonfly appears it may indicate that there are addictions or other problems/pests that are "out of control" in your life that need to be examined and resolved. Often the main issue will not always be what it appears to be on the surface, it is important to peer beneath the emotional waters so to speak in order to understand what is really happening!
Once the Dragonfly has emerged as a winged adult, it conquers the air through its swift flight. This indicates that working with Dragonfly energy may also help you come to some swift conclusions or new insights that help propel you into new ways of being and doing. Certainly it is a most important time for seeing through illusions and really hearing the messages that the Universe is sending you at this time. Beliefs that centre on powerlessness, limitation or fear are likely to be up for review and release. You always have the power to choose what you are going to believe in and focus on You always have the power to take action of some sort that will help change your current circumstances for the better. Working with Dragonfly medicine shows that you are ready to step beyond the mass thought of blaming "something out there" for your problems and instead are now getting down to the business of accepting responsibility for what happens in your life by making the appropriate changes as you feel guided.
People who carry Dragonfly medicine are often quite talented in the use of Colour for healing. They may see or sense the colours that an individual carries in their aura and can learn how to help the person adjust the colour rays so that one become more a part of their own healing process rather than relying on someone else to do the healing for them (which never works anyway!). For example, if someone carries a heavy, murky colour of red in their aura which may lead to power struggles, constant irritations from others or things always going wrong, the Dragonfly person can help that person bring in the clear reds that are more empowering in terms of living with confidence but without the chip on the shoulder that begs for someone to come along and knock it off! Or if someone has an aura that appears to be depleted of vital energy and colour, the Dragonfly person can help this person learn to work with drawing in all the colours of the Universe, both seen and unseen, to repair and invigorate the aura. A simple way of doing this is to start by focusing on all the colours of the rainbow and to visualize them entering into the aura via the Universal flow. This can be expanded by asking that all colours including those our human eyes are not yet able to perceive also flow into the aura. This can take as little as 1 minute up to 20 or more to accomplish, normally though when one has attracted enough of this energy there is a sense of completion or "inner click" and the person just feels done with the process. This can be done as often as someone feels the need and is especially helpful during times of great stress or trauma. Colour is part of the "food" that the aura needs to remain strong and healthy so doing this several times a week or each day can be very uplifting and strengthening!
Dragonfly people are also very talented at helping others navigate their own emotional waters. How often have you heard someone say they "felt Blue" or "tickled Pink"? Our emotions have colours just the same as our world is filled with colour. By noting what colours one is attracted to over a cycle of time, one also can hone in more closely on what emotions are really running the life. Because we become so acclimated to feeling a certain way, we may not even realize that we are depressed, feeling a low level anger or hostility, or are in grief still over an event that occurred many years ago. Or we may project those emotions onto others and wonder why we are constantly attracting people that are depressed or hostile! Dagonfly energy and people can help us get more in touch with our felt but ignored emotions, our ways of feeling that have become so well known to us that we don't even realize those emotions are there! Our emotions also impact the colours that our aura's are displaying and having a Dragonfly person take a good close look at those colours can really help someone release any energy that is not to their benefit while learning how to incorporate more of the colours that will be of better service. Once we are able to put a name to something, then we can begin the process of researching the tools that will help us to heal and move on from it.
In our culture emotions are not "nice", people are not encouraged to feel the wide range of emotions we have been blessed with and so often the energy gets trapped or stuffed down, especially in the lower chakras. Working with Dragonfly energy, calling it into the lower chakras (where much of this energy is especially trapped and then manifested through the body) can help stir this energy up and get it moving again. It need not be as painful as one might fear and it is always less painful than having that energy constantly attracting more of the same to you through its vibration! To work with this if you don't know a Dragonfly person to help you through the process, simply call in the energy of Dragonfly through your mind, just thinking about it is enough and will work. Next, visualize the Dragonfly moving through your lower chakras, infusing them with clear, brilliant colours, the loveliest you can imagine. If you start to feel emotional, stick with the process! Usually it does not take so long for this energy to clear and you need to be feeling those emotions! Cry, yell, stomp your feet, do what ever it takes to get that energy up and out, and bear in mind that you have a powerful ally working within you and for you that us helping support you during this process. If however you really do feel afraid or are concerned you might "lose it", do consult with an alternative healer or other therapist before engaging in any of this sort of healing work. Its a great sign of true strength and power to know we all need help from time to time!
Dragonfly people often benefit from working with crystals that have "rainbows" within them or stones that are brightly coloured, especially if the colours are clear and bright. Accents of colour throughout one's home can really lift the spirits of a Dragonfly person, especially if they have been doing loads of healing work on themselves and others.
When Dragonfly appears be ready for transformation! This is a long cycle that can take up to 2 years or more and yet the work and effort are well worth it in the end. At times you may feel like you are firewalking your way through life (Dragonflies are really mini Dragons after all!) and yet what is emerging from within you is a sense of your own inner power and faith in a Higher Power that no one can ever take from you! You are in the process of coming to know and understand who you truly are, of connecting with the vast source of power and energy that was given to you by Spirit at the time your Soul came into being. This power has grown within you as you have journeyed through space and time. Now is the time for it to be claimed as your own so you may step forth renewed as the powerful Soul that you came to this earthwalk to express!
Essences that are helpful for Dragonfly people are:
All of the Colour essences range.
Arizona Rainbow Hedgehog Cactus - An excellent essence for use when applying colour to any area of your life for healing and expansion.
Diamond essences - All colours of this range.
Gingergrass - Helps the Dragonfly person to feel uplifted and excited by what each new day brings. Very empowering and helpful if the Dragonfly healer is feeling burned out or stressed.
Apricot - Helps the Dragonfly person stay in touch with and balance their own emotional energies even as they are teaching others how to do the same.
Tsavorite Garnet -Very healing and supportive of those who are tapping into their own Dragonfly energy and learning how to work with it properly. This essence is an excellent choice if one is needing a boost of energy!
July 30, 2010
I don't know if it's due to my currently close daily proximity to all things psychic, of if it's just me and where I am with myself right now... or both. But I kind of feel as though I'm holding a thick velvet blanket over myself - a magic blanket that profoundly blocks all things intuitive.
I lately have felt a growing urge to join the ranks of my fellow contractors as an intuitive reader. I feel the talent itself bubbling at the surface, but not quite breaking the surface. I know that if I consciously tried to do it, I'd fail miserably. And sitting down with a psychic who squinches up her face, and develops a thin sheen of sweat across her mug as she strains to hear even the faintest psychic whisper? Probably not the most sought after intuitive on the block.
What to do... what form will this gift take... if any? I've lately taken a numerology class, which seems to be more memorization of what each number means. A few days ago I picked up a deck of cards on palm reading at the half price bookstore.
I just don't know what fork in the road to take on this one. But I'm anxious to get the velvet pulled OFF!
July 12, 2010
So... there's this stone that I've been wanting to find: Pietersite.
When I heard that it was also known as The Tempest Stone I knew I had to have it regardless of the rest of it's energetic properties.
The funny thing is that - at work - there are several different bins of different loose stones scattered across most of one wall. It seems like each day I'm there - even though I've walked by the wall a million times now - I'm discovering a stone that I've never seen before - that was always really there. Pietersite was the last time this happened, and it made an impression.
I held it, and I just thought POWER.
I looked up the properties, saw that it was also known as The Tempest, and that it held the power of storms. TOTALLY sounded like me, and I loved the way that it felt in my hand when I was holding it.
I found several little stones in the Pietersite box that I liked, but - as I said - they were all "little".
I wanted a CHUNK.
Today I found the biggest piece yet. It's a small sphere - maybe an inch and a quarter in diameter.
I really thought that I wanted a stone with a bit more red in it, but when I held it I KNEW it was mine.
So... we'll see what the Pietersite brings me... to begin with - MORE POWER and LESS SPINELESS would be great!
June 25, 2010
There were Archangel Michael Cards behind the counter at work today. I chose one at random. Apparently - not so random. The Universal axiom there are no accidents apparently extends into the smallest details - like picking a card from a deck that isn't yours just for the heck of it.
The following is the message on the card - just for me:
Write about your thoughts and feelings. This card indicates that you're confused by conflicted feelings, and are unsure of which direction to go in. Archangel Michael will help you delve into your emotions, pealing away the layers in order to reach your inner core of truth. He guides you to write down everything you're thinking and feeling without editing or censoring your words. Keeping a private journal will enable you to gain insights into the nature of what you genuinely desire. This clarity will illuminate the steps you need to take next.
Possible specific meanings:
- Pursure creating writing as a hobby or career
- Take a writing course
- Writing as part of your divine life purpose
- Learn a new language
- Join a writer's group
- Submit your writing to a publisher or magazine
Thank you for helping me tap into my god given creativity and wisdom so I clearly express myself and glean insight, blessing and healing.
There is no way that any of that can be construed as accidental.
June 11, 2010
Yesterday I received my level II Reiki re-attunement. I was expecting it to go somewhat like my first. It did, and it didn't. The first time around (again) you'll recall (as was mentioned below) that I experienced a very strong up swell of anger during and after the attunement. This time, not so much. Not at all actually. I was strangely calm throughout the entire ritual. Granted, the second attunement was shorter compared to the first, but still... so serene I felt that I was expecting a latent wave of animosity to hit at any moment following. It didn't.
What did happen was that, by the time I got home last evening, I was mired in such a bog of apathy and numbness, that I couldn't really even call it depression. Depression would have been feeling something. This was utter and complete dry, husky nothingness. I find this especially noteworthy because, when I arrived at work yesterday afternoon, someone actually mentioned - out loud - that I looked so much happier than usual.
I was shocked at the moment that this statement was made because I realized that I did feel surprisingly light, carefree and pleasant... and if you've read me at all then you know this is SO unlike me. So... to go from that alien state - through a very serene attunement session - landing finally in a smoggy gray cloud of lethargy was a bit of a long winded trip to the twilight zone... even for me, which is saying something.
The part of yesterday's experience that WAS repetitive were the eyes. During my attunement, I saw several pairs of eyes looking at me in the darkness beneath my eyelids. The first thing I remember seeing (I think) was a gray and white wolf running toward me through what looked like a long narrow tunnel extending from my left eye. Next, there was a a single eye - a female eye - made up with mascara, eyeliner, shadow, glitter - the whole nine. It was giving me this coy, flirty look. The eye was directly in the middle of my field of "vision" but was turned slightly to my right and was looking slyly at me beneath long dark heavy lashes. If I'd been able to see the whole face that went with this single eye, I'm sure the lips would have been bright red and arranged into a satisfied smirk, as if she were privy to some hilarious secret that I'd yet to uncover.
I believe the next two images were a barn owl's pair of ghostly eyes, followed by two bright red glowing eyes. Then a smattering of animals: a mouse, an elephant, a small monkey and a baboon.
My attuner tells me that there was another male presence in attendance - an ancestor, but neither of us could figure out who it was.
This morning I awoke with a dull headache and an unsureness that I was going to be able to get up. Once I did, popped some Excedrin, some supplements and a banana, I felt better by the time I got to work.
The one friend - a workmate - who I shared the experience with so far believes that the eyes all belong to my individual guides who are ready for me to take notice of them and become more aware of who they are and what they do for me.
I'm ok with that... but... sounds difficult and - for me - seemingly impossible. I want to feel sure that I know who I have watching over me, what their individual roles are and their names. I don't trust myself to come up with an accurate image, role and title without believing more that I've made it all up out of desperation than an actual knowing.
May 26, 2010
Ok... hearing signs that I need to let go of anger and judgment. Something happens, I knee jerk to anger, and that brings on the judgment. Perhaps, since I'm so good at the self-loathing, my expertise can't help but leak out and soak everyone else on the planet who's unlucky enough to commit what I see as a judgment-worthy offense. Not much else to say about that yet except that it's on my mind, and I'm aware that I'm resisting doing something about it because even the idea of letting go of some or all of it is annoying to me. I WANT to judge because I feel entitled. Perhaps if I'm so busy pointing the critical finger outward I won't have to focus on NOT doing it to myself.
Jeepers. I would say I'm a mess at this point, but I already got my hand slapped for the trash talking of self more than once today.
HELP!
May 22, 2010
Yesterday a memory came to me. I can't recall if this was a dream I'd had the night before or a vision during my attunement, BUT... dolphins.
If it was a dream it was terribly vivid at the time. I remember little though aside from the closeness I felt to being in the water with this animal. It feels as though there may have been several surrounding me... OR it's also possible that the connection with the one was so strong that I felt strongly surrounded by intense dolphin energy.
Here is some basic information in Dolphins as animal totems.
And if you don't wish to follow the link then this is what animal totem.com told me:
Dolphins are beautiful, playful animals. They live in water but are actually mammals that need to breath air through a single nostril also known as a blowhole located on top of their head. Normally dolphins surface approximately every two minutes for air, but are capable of holding their breath for several minutes when making rapid deep dives.
Dolphin comes when we need to break emotional barriers and communicate truth. Dolphin will then guide us to find harmony by moving forward with our life.
If you want to make a deeper connection with your Animal Totem, fill your environment with images of the animal to let the animal know it is welcome in your space.
May 20, 2010
This afternoon, one of my newest friends (who is quickly becoming one of my dearest friends) gave me a reiki attunement.
It was actually a re-attunement as I'd had the full attunement to the level of Master/Teacher ten years ago.
But for a long time now I've felt disconnected from Spirit... or God... or the Universe... or whatever you wanna call it... actually whatever I wanna call it, right? And I don't know what I wanna call "it".
I can't really remember the last time I felt connected to God. And, honestly - if I had full memory of every moment in my life - I don't know if I could say I've ever felt that connection.
So... in an attempt to re-establish a connection that may - or may not - have ever been perceived, I am beginning at the beginning of my energetic exploration.
I only received the first level this afternoon. I don't know what I was expecting, but it certainly wasn't what I got. I had moments of deep relaxation that were followed - and completely overshadowed and outnumbered - by moments of intensity that made me want to either roll on the ground or scream at the top of my lungs (preferably while kicking and/or punching something).
I was very surprised by the aggression I felt surging up out of me, bellowing to be vocalized. My attuner, too, was aware of the intensity of our "bubble" and we both had to take some time to come down from what I can only identify as an adrenaline rush with an attitude.
The things I thought I was seeing behind my closed eyelids and experiencing in or around my body during the ritual:
- A wide-open blue eye staring at me... pulsing into my vision twice... slightly faded the second time
- A hot-violet masquerade-type mask... what struck me the most about it were the black holes cut for the eyes
- A strong desire to be in the sand - on a beach, at the ocean
- A nearly uncontrollable urge to shriek angrily and spew an enormous amount of anger out of my body
- A wish to be lying on the floor that was so strong my attuner told me that he almost felt at one point that he was having to hold me down in my chair - I was unaware that I was trying to get up
- According to my attuner, my paternal grandfather - who I knew only by sight - was present for the ritual... he was a "bad" man who, through fault of his own, was unable to move or speak - I was consequently unable to really know him before he died
- I thought of my maternal Grandfather at the end of the ritual. He is the one that I felt.
- There is something that both my attuner and I know occurred or materialized for both of us during the attunement, but neither of us can remember what it was
One of the things that still frustrates me that doesn't seem to have changed as a result of the attunement: I am still unable to perceive the sensation of intense heat coming from my hands that my clients apparently feel. How is it that they feel, and I don't even though it's coming from my hands??
Curious.
I will expand further as new insights, realizations, lessons and aha moments occur.